new dA account, yeah

may or may not be permanent

plz redirect your watches

a part of your soul ties you to the next world, or maybe to the last...i'm still not sure. what I do know is: to us the world is different, as we are to the world

but i guess you would know that

blahblahblah asfgsakjfg i've been so underproductive lately ): but something makes me laugh. and that something is the fact that people seem to be more sexually interested by my characters the more "xeno" they are. the vanilla ones don't get attention. the fucked-up ones do.

i can't say i really expected that. xD;;

however, what does NOT surprise me is that i seem to frighten many people with my character designs. the arachnophobes don't like jii, the not-so-slug-savvy avoid tide, and the sane keep their hands away from aivyn.

station joins the family now. :)

i can't wait to design arbor. he's gonna be so rad

UPDATE i have a new main. 8D his name is visnu and he is a chanter.

[link]

lumiel server asmodian side

character names are eloster and luziel. i'm primarily using eloster at the moment. :V

[link] I MAEK FRANDZ

okay so yesterday i was discussing things with two of my coworkers and one of them said something about his other job, where he works with a transwoman i happen to know. she's a lesbian.

he said he didn't understand why "a man would go through that whole process just to end up a lesbian." and the other employee agreed. :/ i tried to explain to them that it'd be no different from a regular woman liking other women, but they just didn't get it.

i think what a lot of people don't understand is that there is a very, very big difference between gender and sexual preference.

do most gay men wish they were women? i don't think so.

do most lesbians wish they were men? probably not.

i think the illusion that being trans means you're just a gay man/woman who has a fascination with the opposite sex stems from both stereotypes of homosexuals, and general misunderstandings from the cisgendered heterosexual community.

i'm not trans because i want to have a "heterosexual" relationship with a woman. i'm trans because i feel misplaced in my body and i don't like being recognized as a woman, because inside, that's not what i am.

not all transmen are extremely butch. not all transwomen are flowery. just like cisgendered men and women, there is a spectrum. there is no black and white. some transmen are gay, some transwomen are lesbians, and there are most definitely roles in-between.

me? i'm pansexual. however, just like being trans, that does not define who i am. there is more to me as a person beyond what i see in myself and others as being "right" or "sexually appealing."

i just wish more people would understand that. :/